Oh so tired

Despite not doing custom blog makeovers for 6 weeks now I have felt more tired than ever. I have no idea why I always feel like I'm burning the candle at both ends but I'm feeling just a little tired of always feeling tired now. It sucks.

I have been busily working away on some vector stock because I really needed to find a way to reduce the amount of time needed to cplete people's design projects. I just can't physically draw EVERYTHING from scratch any more, there just isn't enough hours in the day. So I have decided that when I eventually re-open my blog designs, I'm going to ask people to purchase image stock, like other designers do. Mine will work a little different though in that because I do some of my own image stock I can offer them cheaper - although I'll still be charging less money than other designers who produce good quality work.  Something's got to give because I can't continue to grind myself away to earn £1 an hour.

I've been feeling worried lately about hubby's job. He's on a 1 year contract and I don't know why but I have a feeling they won't be issuing another 1 year contract. I have no reason to think this, maybe I'm just getting cynical. I know that whatever happens God will provide for us, but still it's worrying. I think God and I might have a different idea of an acceptable standard of living...maybe I need to lower my sights LOL.*

Weight loss has been kind of static the last 3 weeks, but countless business lunches and social do's isn't helping. Agh!

*I'm saying this half tongue in cheek because I actually DON'T take my current standard of living for granted at all.

It's Christmaaaaaaas!

 Got the Christmas presents wrapped...got the food packed....car is loaded.....you know what this means?

It's Christmaaaaaaaaas!

Today we are going to my parents house to celebrate Christmas. It's a little late (long story) but I'm so excited. I love Christmas and I love family gatherings. I can't wait to see my dad who I haven't seen since June - he was working when my mum and sister came over on the day after Christmas.

I'm so so so excited...like a kid you might say LOL

Have a good day everyone :)

Uh-oh!

I'm starting to feel that familiar run down feeling...the tiredness....the bad mood (because I'm tired)...the not sleeeping, despite being tired. I hate this, why does my body hate me so much? As soon as I do ANYTHING at all I just get so run down. I'm not whining (honestly), I'm just frustrated, this has been going on so long and I'm still getting no answers as to why my immue system is so rubbish.

Anyway, that's enough of that, I just HAD to get that off my chest!

This week has been a good week. I never managed to get to Weightwatchers this week, but I've started noticing little things that make me realise I'm on the right track. Things like, my lab coat at work doesn't just fasten, it fastens and leaves a couple of inches spare. this really is progress because that lab coat was made to measure and it fitted PERFECTLY....until the first time it was washed! The second time I wore it it was a good 4 inches smaller and looked like a second skin LOL. Now it's baggy and that makes me a happy woman!

I haven't got back on the treadmill yet as I'm leaving that for weekends, but I intend to go back again on Sunday - where I will try to beat my last session.  As for other exercise, I've been finding small ways of increasing it, like parking further away in the car park at work, using the bathrooms that are further away from my desk and doing more housework etc. Hmmm....maybe that's why I feel so run down this week?

I haven't made any recipes that are interesting enough to share with you this week, but I'll be sure to share something in the next week or two as I have a few ideas :)

In other news, my family are celebrating Christmas tomorrow, since proper Christmas was a washout with me just having had surgery and still being unwell. I can't wait, I haven't seen my dad since September and I didn't really talk much with my mum and sister when I saw them on Boxing Day because I felt so rough. we all just sat there doing our own thing, me sleeping, Andy running round after everyone and my mum and sister doing their own thing. It was a real disappointment as Christmases in my family are usually a big family affair! I just hope Andy is better, because all we need is Christmas number 2 ruined by more sickness! I've sent him to the doctor this afternoon and I hope he doesn't chicken out this time.

Well, I'll catch up with you all over the weekend, I might even share some pics of the family Christmas :)

I'm a big fat liar

I'm a big fat liar...or that's what it looks like! I had an appointment this evening to see the asthma specialist. My treatment was changed at the end of last year and I had to go back to report the results. Anyway, I gave them my results, which have actually been really good, the best in years...like peak flows of 450 (good for me). "Great, well show us what your made of then" she said. What did I blow? A pathetic 320.

"Better double your meds I think" was the end result.

Noooooooooooo! There's clearly something wrong with their equipment, I usually know when it's that low. Hmmmmm....I'm still undecided on whether I will in fact double the doses.

Hubby hasn't been well the last few days so I dragged him to the health centre with me. We got him registered and waited...and waited...and then he decided he felt better and didn't need to see the doctor after all. I gave him "the look" but clearly he wasn't changing his mind. We got home and what;s the first thing he does? Goes to the medicine cabinet because he doesn't feel well after all.

I give up! LOL